User:Hazyastralight

"Call me Haze or Aster"

• INTP "145" (1w9-4w5-5w4) ― something around those vibes
• Profile picture made from https://picrew.me/image_maker/461427
• A person in their early-to-mid 20s, somewhere in South East Asia.
• Suffered from non-24 hours sleep-wake disorder, and still randomly living in other timezone.
• More "toned" bio and ventspace: https://hazyastralight.tumblr.com/

[Note]

• Asocial, extreme loner
• Closet, inclusive neutralist; an observant, distancing from the discourse
• Have an unreliable memory regarding people and desensitized to controversial topics; please do warn me to check your bio if you have preferred pronoun(s) and/or triggers in case it seems I didn't do so before engaging in the conversation, I might act dum-dum sometimes ;;;;;
• multiply semicolons (;;;) is my personal expression of me breaking some sweats anxiously, embarrassingly, or something around that, similar to emoji
• Any pronouns; I wanna see how other people addresses me as I'm too genderblind/indifferent to address myself
• By "genderblind" I mean, that my own sense of preference is lost and more focus on each person's characteristic than gender, but I still include a concept or belief about gender regarding each individual as a part of their own identity, and I do like and interest in all genders. Usually I use "genderblind" to mock myself for being unable to distinguish masculine, feminine or androgynous feature as it all has been long blended together or simply become "one of human's concept" in my perception. I do not mean to disregard gender preference!

[Main labels]

• Stellarian/Non-binary (specifically Pandrogyne or Maverique in a sense)​
• Pan-Oriented Aroace

[More labels]

• Autogender; "This loneliness belongs to me and I will take everything to make sure it'll always be mine. I don't need the rest of mankind."
• Pandrogyne; for internal self, even being so prideful, still feels awkward to use the label openly
  • "I'm trapped in this body. I need to find the other half of me ― the parts that I'm missing ― and go beyond this mortal limit."
  • "The mind desires a form, the body desires of unbound."
• A-spec: Autorose (Autosexual/Autoromantic), Aegosexual/Aegoromantic
• Demi-leaning Pan-oriented for all kind of Tertiary attractions, mostly neutral otherwise platonic-leaning or aesthetic/sensual

[in deep]

• Early-to-mid 20 years old
• Asperger syndrome, Dysthymia, non-24 hours sleep―wake disorder; still under medication
• Right-leg semi disabled; can do nothing but walk slowly and having major movement difficulty on surface height difference
• Prefers neutral-leaning masculine/feminine figures, views any figures, be it fictional or reality, as "neutral" by default; hence a reason I tend to use they/them regardless (or that my goldenfish brain or my instinct makes me resort to use that)
• Beliefs that everyone is naturally Pandrogyne, be it more akin to other or internal self, hence being non-binary as the original concept of Pandrogyne is rather related with philosophy than genders, no offense, just being broody.... psychology and philosophy, yeah, y'all can't escape me making everything inside my head sounds philosophical-
• Non-English speaking native and wordy as hell, I'm so sorry for everyone who read my usually lengthy message O<-<
• Trilingual; Thai, English, Japanese
• Previously used labels: (neutral-)Androgyne, Neutrois, Pansexual (majorly outside non-English speaking area)
• I do not see myself as Neurogender or Xenogender, but I do appreciate them
• Essential lurker on any other platforms
• This is my alternative handle; my main handle is including arts with possibly potential gore and violence, do not seek and mention about my main handle on the places I'm using the alternative