the stardust system
we can, to an extent, recall what a different headmate did- although for the most part right now our headmates dont know much about each other as we can't communicate internally, and vari is usually fronting, so others dont often get a chance to respond to letters- which are what we use to communicate.
alsooo not to be annoying or anything but we’re artists, and if it’s possible you could commission us- it’s probably awkward for us to ask that but the support helps <3
<poem>n--?=$ | p[m/n/nb/a/b/gf/gq/x/l/qr/ar/as/xo] | a[b-- r---/r+/^] | s.[he/sh/sd/sv/mf/lsp+] | o[t/e/n/q/x/a/ad/m] | m[p/ph/a/q/c/o/nd] | w[f/h/$!/=] | c--[cc/cc+~/m~#] | of[r---/o] | f[a+/mw^] | m[ast+~] | r[f+/p/w/r/m] | v+^>!+ | x[l/ar/as/q/o] | g[n/nb/a/b/g/gq/x/o] | j[a/wr/o/u/us/st] | s[r----/o/o+^]! | r</poem>
<poem>name: vari nicknames: vai role: prosecutor of some kind, traumaholder (sort of), stressholder (sort of), memoryholder, frontrunner, host, worrier, cynic, outernaut, possibly some kind of accuser, co-core (?) age: teenager, ageslider, demi-ageless?? gender: afab masc aligned enby, genderfluid pronouns: he/ae, pronounfluid orientation: lesbian aroace, nebularoace nebulaplatonic caedplatonic amory: ambiamorous hyperfixations: psychology, music, and lgbtqia+ terms relationships: in a qpr with rae <3
other:</poem><poem>name: jupiter nicknames: none (that we know of) role: protecter, caregiver of some sort, traumabreaker, hygienist, maybe dissociagenic, maybe an absorber, and possibly an observer age: ??? gender: ??? pronouns: star/fae orientation: ??? amory: ??? hyperfixations: psychology relationships: none
other: if jupiter is fronting, please do not talk about things like attraction, anxiety, fear, or sadness with fae- unless fae say its alright. it very possibly might trigger star to switch with vari- and jupiter usually only fronts when vari cannot.</poem><poem>name: rigel/orion/leo nicknames: none (that we know of) role: protector, core (?), possibly former host age: ageless- maybe a little, maybe a systeen gender: spacecoric, caelgender, astralgender, spagegendervoid, maybe spacefixi but not sure pronouns: leo/leoself or space/spaceself, they/them okay too orientation: ??? amory: nonamorous hyperfixations: space relationships: ...no. just no. other:</poem>
<poem>-attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder -rejection sensitive dysphoria -obsessive-compulsive disorder -extremely severe hypochondria -multiple diagnosed but unspecified anxiety disorders (possibly generalized anxiety disorder and social anxiety disorder, as well as maybe even others) -semi-diagnosed extremely severe generalized anxiety disorder -semi-diagnosed extremely severe social anxiety disorder -possibly undiagnosed panic disorder, unsure about it though -undiagnosed very severe major depressive disorder -possibly anorexia nervosa -acute stress responses -maybe post traumatic stress disorder- was vaguely hinted at by a psychiatrist whos known us for most of our lives, but nothing was explicitly stated- although it does feel right to us -we have suspicions about multiple personality disorders, although as we are all minors feel it would be harmful to self-diagnose with them or anything of the sort, as minors rarely get those diagnoses due to the fact their personalities are still developing (anyone self-diagnosed with a personality disorder is valid though!! this is just our personal preference)</poem>
<poem> -the relieved emoji -gaslighting -manipulation -emotional abuse -verbal abuse -mental abuse -animal abuse -the name/nickname 'maddie' -eas sounds -eating (squick) -food (squick) -blood -being forced to eat -force feeding -the phrase 'lolol' -psychiatric hospitals (squick) -overeating -needles and sharp objects -s*lf-h*rm and s**cide (e, a, u, i) -bugs and insects of pretty much any kind, especially bees, wasps, hornets, and spiders -paper cuts -pedophillia (when acted upon) -weight shaming -being called 'too skinny' or 'too fat', etc -the prases 'k', 'k.', 'k then', 'k. then' or 'k then.' -people yelling and/or arguing -glorifying any mental disorders in general -glorifying depression, anxiety disorders, and/or anorexia -invalidating trauma -victim blaming -being told your trauma is just "not being able to let go" -dismissive phrases -generalizations -being ignored, interrupted, and/or talked over -roblox in general (squick) -adopt me -welcome to bloxburg (somewhere between trigger and squick) -the dog breed pomeranians (somewhere between trigger and squick) -being called stupid or similar things (even as a joke. somewhere between trigger and squick) -the song “seasonal depression” by mxmtoon -dream smp exile arc -dream (the smp character, not the youtuber himself) -jokes about trauma -being accused of lying -being called a liar -being fakeclaimed -being yelled at -yelling in general -arguing </poem>
<poem> -we experience dissociation -we experience depersonalization -we experience derealization -we have insomnia as a symptom -we get self-harm impulses -we get s**cidal thoughts -we suffer from migraines -we suffer from tinnitus -we have misophonia -we have hashimoto's; possibly hypothyroidism -we have vitiligo -we get panic attacks -we get anxiety attacks -we stim -we probably tic -we easily get overstimulated -we are often understimulated -we have traumatic memories -we suffer from traumatic flashbacks -we get an abundance of intrusive thoughts -we experience imposter syndrome -we experience delusions and extreme paranoia -we experience both auditory and visual hallucinations, sometimes individually and sometimes together -we’re pretty sure we experience psychosis -we're pretty sure we experience delusions -we are compulsive hoarders -we possibly have synesthesia </poem>
<poem> -you are against lgbtqia+ and/or mogai folkel in any way -you’re discriminatory in any way (lgbtphobic, racist, ableist, sexist, intersexist, misogynistic, classist, etc) -you think disorders or queer identities are ‘quirky’ -you fakeclaim -you believe psychiatric disabilities aren’t actually disabilities -you’re a sysmed -you’re a transmed -your body is older than 25 -your body is younger than 12 -you think some folkels’s trauma is worse than others’ -you invalidate trauma -you purposely trigger folkel -you use slurs that you can’t reclaim -you’re a pedophile and act upon pedophillic thoughts -you’re a furry-hater -you’re anti-otherkin -you’re anti-alterhuman -you’re against educated self-diagnosis -you’re a pro-shipper or anti-anti </poem>
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hiii!! i just noticed we're both median collectives (we're more towards the multiple side, yall are more towards the singlet side/in the middle) named stardust who have an amnt of headmates (as of writing this at least) that are both related to each other! (30 and 3!) so i think thats cool :0 - elysia from Stardustcollective, xe/they yee it iss :00 -vari (and sorta jupiter sjdoknsdkj)
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