Hey, I'm wondering if I might be greyromantic. Though I have had crushes in the past, all but two of them weren't strong after a short amount of time. The first exception was my first real crush, and the second was my first and only relationship. During that relationship, my feelings fluctuated, often not being very strong, and to get them to be strong, I had to concentrate on the feelings, though this often didn't work. At first, my counselor and I thought these low feelings were due to the stress that one often feels in college, but I've been searching for people with similar experiences, and this might be it. I recently ended that relationship due to the feelings not being very strong, and recently decided I'd rather be able to like whoever I want, mainly fictional characters, though the vast majority of these feelings aren't very strong, than be in a committed relationship when those feelings just aren't very strong either. I previously wanted to find someone and get married, but now, I don't think this would be the best option for me, and not possible with the strong feelings I would want, though I'm kind of grieving the loss of this, although I am freer now that I'm out of my past relationship since I don't have to worry about the low feelings anymore and such.
So, any advice? Similar stories?