I think this might be a bit of dysphoria. I feel that way was well myself but as a guy, like when people can me he/him i get a little disapointed, and sometimes i'll feel down when i see the face of a man in the mirror. But other times i feel fine, I think I might be trans but idk i still need to do some questioning and maybe test myself. I think maybe you might be trans as well, if you have a friend you can talk to about this do it, it helped me.
